hi, my heart.
it’s been 100 days
100 sunrises since the day we said, “yes, this is us”
100 nights of falling asleep thinking of you
100 moments, big and small, that have only deepened what i already knew so early on
you are it
you are the one
i still remember the very beginning, how effortless it felt to fall into you
how our connection didn’t feel new — it felt remembered, like a song i'd always known the words to
with you, there was no guessing
no pretending
just home
you saw me, in ways i didn’t even know i needed to be seen
and more than that, you stayed
you chose me
and yet, love, choosing you is the easiest thing i’ve ever done
but god, this distance
it hasn’t been easy
some days it aches so loudly
the kind of ache that sits in your chest and makes everything a little heavier
i’ve missed you in ways i didn’t know were possible
missed your voice not through a speaker
missed your skin, your scent, the way your hand fits in mine like it was made for it
and then april came
that one visit
it changed everything
seeing you, holding you, kissing you without a screen between us
it was the closest thing to magic i’ve ever known
the closest thing to heaven
those few days felt like a dream i never wanted to wake up from
you were real in my arms, not just in my mind, and it reminded me why this love is so worth it
because the moment i touched you, i knew again
this is where i belong
right here
with you
every goodbye, in person, on the phone, since has been a silent war between gratitude and grief
grateful we found this, devastated to be pulled apart again
but through it all, my love stays
strong
grounding
constant
and now, knowing i get to see you again soon
it’s what keeps me breathing softer
it’s the light at the end of the ache
these 100 days have tested us in every way, and still, i’ve never once doubted you
because you're my twin flame
my mirror and my muse
my softness and my strength
you are the most beautiful thing i’ve ever known
and i don’t just love you
i know i’m meant for you
completely
wholly
endlessly
if these 100 days have taught me anything, it’s that no amount of distance can dull what we have
we were written in the stars long before we ever met
and i will spend my life loving you, choosing you, and reminding you just how deeply you are cherished
here’s to 100 days
here’s to forever